| It occurs to me that first message not only came across as pansyish, but a little whiny. I apologize for either of those bad tendencies of mine, I've just been stressed out about this lately and needed to go all fuckin' emo for a second or three. |
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| Welcome to my blog everyone. I guess this was made in the hopes that some good would come out of it, but hey what's the rush to get to the point. I guess I'm writing here in an attempt to let out all those thoughts I'm having that I keep deep down inside my mind and heart, where no one else can find them. I would have to say, there is this girl that I like so desperately, one that I see every day and talk to, and who hardly knows I exist. Would she choose to completely remove me from her life were I to tell her how I feel? Probably. Would she care that I really and truly love her for how fantastic a person she is? Definitely not. But there's I guess no place like the interweb to say how I feel, so true to form I'll keep saying it. And it's not like I really want to like her. She is completely and entirely wrong for me, and I can see that in every thing that she says and does. My head says, "No Kris, don't get involved with her, just stay away, and forget about her". But, such thoughts never go away. My heart tells me something different. And no matter how many times she hurts me, of which today is no exception, I can't get her out of my head. Why won't she just leave my thoughts and let me get on with my life, instead of just hanging there in front me, always telling me that I want what I can truly never have? Life sucks everyone. It truly and utterly sucks. How emo of me. |
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